Potential - S01 E73

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Potential - S01 E73

Read Story: SEASON 1 EPISODE 73

"A lot of things are bad or supposed to be bad, but being curious is perfectly natural. Things happen at your age. Emotions, feelings. desires...lots of stuff is changing and it's all powerful. Being curious is normal and if you don't explore, how will you know?" Cindy said. "You have to be smart, though, but it's fine to experience things."

"Smart," Deana whispered.

"Yes, smart. You shouldn't hurt yourself or anyone else, and don't do something that will affect the rest of your life negatively."

"You mean like getting pregnant or something like that."

"Yes," Cindy said. "You're smart enough to know where to draw the line. Just use your head."

"What about hell?" she said, and shivered at her question. "I, ah, I enjoyed it. Isn't that bad? What if I plan to do it again?"

"No, you're not going to hell," Cindy said. "I don't believe you go to hell for acting on feelings or desires or curiosity that you're born with. That wouldn't be fair. Did you hurt anyone?"

"No, no I didn't."

"It was your friend, Rebecca... wasn't it?" Cindy said.

Deana knew it wasn't a question, Cindy already knew who it was. "Yes, but you can't-"

"In confidence, that means I can't tell. Everything you tell me is between you and me," Cindy said. "She's cute, by the way."

Deana felt light and knew she could be weightless if she told everything. Someone who she looked up to and thought of as an adult knew about her and Rebecca. Cindy had just sald Rebecca was cute. She tried not to think it, but once a thought is a thought, it can't be undone. She imagined what it would be like to have her strong, beautiful cousin make love to her. The girl's hugs were

enough to make her feel warm and loved inside. What on Earth

enough to make her feel warm and loved inside. What on Earth could she do to me in bed?

"Did Rebecca like it, too?"

"Ah, oh, yes, yes she did."

"You two still best friends forever and love each other?" Cindy asked.

"Yeah, that's what BFFs are all about."

"Good, that's good," Cindy said.

"It is?" Deana said.

"Sure, sure it is. You love Rebecca and she loves you and you've been friends forever, who better to be curious with. Beside, Rebecca strikes me as a real firecracker. I bet she's lots of fun to have as a friend."

"Oh yes, she's a barrel full of fun," Deana said. "But, what about-

"I know, I know, I've heard all the same stuff you have," Cindy said. "Everything doesn't fit into a nice mold and go a certain way, and God isn't waiting to smash you the second you make a mistake or try something that none of the church ladies would admit they did. We are all made different and have different thoughts and different experiences growing up that lead us down different paths. Don't ever let anyone try and stuff you into their mold, and never assume other people don't have the same secrets you have. You'd be shocked if you could see into my mind."

Even though she had known Cindy her whole life, Deana believed her cousin. She wanted to hear some of those shocking secrets. Could Cindy have wanted her own brother to make love to her? "Thank you, thank you so much for listening to me and saying what you said. You know how my dad is."

"I do," Cindy said with a hard edge in her tone. "Candy isn't that way, though. You can trust her...more than you think. I promise."

Deana wondered if Cindy knew how under her father thumb Candy really was. In the good ole days, Deana wouldn't have thought twice about confiding in Candy, and she still wanted to, but her father would break Candy if he needed to know a secret.

After they stood up, Cindy gave her one of those bone crushing

hugs, then held her by the shoulders and said, "Don't you feel better now?"

"I do," Deana said, but she still carried the weight of her two graveyard secrets.

"Don't forget, if you need to talk about anything, I'm here for you. Just because I'm at college doesn't mean you shouldn't call me, you got that?"

"Yes...yeah, I got it," she said.